The "We Made it to the End of the Year", edition.

iPod shuffled to "This Place Hotel", The Jackson's. I like the arrangement. Well, it's the end of 2013. We made it. I started out using a walker.  I was passing out after treatment. My mom died in January.  But wait!  Progress started. I took my first trip in February.  I used the cane because I hated the walker. Lol.  Vanity had a huge part in my recovery.  The walk from the airport transport to the wheelchair area was the longest walk ever!!  Shawn got accepted to a PhD program with a fellowship. We took a trip to Champaign, Illinois to help her get an apartment. I started the process to get on a transplant list.  I reconnected and got together with friends from elementary school!

"Shake It Off", Mariah Carey.  "Like the Calgon commercial..."  I got the catheter taken off my neck.  Shawn graduated from Wayne State University, cum laude. Frances would have been so proud. We were able to tell her about the acceptance to the PhD program. :-)  I planned and had an open house for Shawn. I walked in a walkathon for the National Kidney Foundation. Raised over $400. Thanks so much to my sponsers!  

Took a  6 day trip to Disney a World.  Had a ball. Went to the water park!  Got put on a transplant list. Enrolled in water aerobics, took several day trips around Michigan including Port Huron and Frankenmuth. Went back to Champaign to help Shawn move. Twice. Lol.  Tossed the cane!!  Missed Dad so we went back to Vegas. Got selected and trained to be a peer mentor to other dialysis patients.  Went back to Vegas to spend Christmas with my family. Fixed a massive spread, with assistance from Brian and Shawn. "California My Way", The Main Igredient. Cuba Gooding's voice is so smooth and distinctive.  And through  it all. I NEVER missed a treatment.  Had dialysis in Orlando, Florida, Champaign, Illinois, and 3 times in Las Vegas.  Lol. The last time at the airport,  the walk from ground transport to the wheelchairs was a piece of cake. Now I'm still to wobbly and slow to make it to the gates without assistance, but one day...  Anyway, the stamina levels have made leaps and bounds.  

I can go to stores without using the scooters. I don't even lean on the carts when shopping anymore.  Early on, I didn't have the stamina to shop for more than 10 minutes. I'd have to go back to wait in the car. And even getting to the car was dicey. Now, I go by myself...when I can escape my helicopter husband. Lol. 

My friends and family have played an immeasurable role in my recovery. I can't thank everyone enough for the love, support and encouragement. The comments on Facebook and the blog let me know you care and understand. 

Thank you for being there this past year. I love you all. Have a safe and wonderful New Years Eve.  I'll be back next year (Friday-lol). Signing off with, Kem, "You're On My Mind".

The "Back Home and Dialyzing on Sunday Morning", edition.

iPod shuffled to "Hey Western Union Man", Jerry Butler and the Impressions.  That through me for a  loop. I knew Jerry Butler had been in the Impressions, but I never heard them referred as Jerry Butler and the Impressions.  I'll look it up later.  I'm back home after 10 days visiting Dad.  We had a great time. And the time seemed to pass so quickly.

"Steve Miller", Jet Airliner. "Big ole jet airliner". Love the hook. :)  lol. The song mentions a 707. Talk about an old airplane. I don't even remember the last time I saw one. It was a big long airplane.  I think we flew that to London in 1973. Lol. On the way to Vegas we were on the standard 737. Prior to departure, I got a notice from Delta that there was a change in the itinerary.  Well sort of.  They changed the plane.  We went from a 737 to a 767, a larger plane. I suppose more people were leaving Vegas than anticipated, so a larger plane was needed. 

Well we boarded and oh my goodness. We boarded a 21st century plane!  Brian and I were in Business Elite seats. We'd seen pictures of these planes, but honestly never thought we'd be sitting in them!  We had individual pods. The seats had massive leg room.  The seat reclined...like a LaZBoy!  We had individual lamps and places to recharge and stow the electronics.  We had easily 20+ movies, and over 15 TV shows to watch...and that was just comedy.  I didn't check out the drama, comedy or lifestyle categories!  Nor did I check out the kid section or the games. Or the music channels.  And yet I still had a complaint!  I like to check the stats and maps while in flight. You get to see airspeed, temperature at 30,000 feet (really cold), distance traveled and distance to destination, time to destination.  You also see large and small maps of where the airplane is.  This plane was set from San Francisco to Memphis. ;-(  However, all things considered, I got over it. Lol.

"Never Can Say Goodbye", Isaac Hayes. Lol. I haven't heard a version of this song I don't like.  I had dialysis 4 times in Vegas. At the same center I've been to the last 2 times I was there. I am now an official regular visitor.  Lol. They asked me when I was coming back. :)  It's different from my "home" unit and I guess I prefer my unit because it's familiar. What are some of the differences?  First of all is the ice machine next to the scale at the Vegas unit....and that's a plus. I asked about one here.  I was told there had been one, but people would steal the ice. Really?  "Sigh".  That's as ignorant as stealing the cable box remotes.....but I digress. Differences. Our machines are newer. Vegas has windows.  Here, we're in the lower level. There, they tape the hell out of me when the needles are removed. I like that, though.  The pressure they put on the access makes the bleeding stop quickly. I'm out in about 5-8 minutes after the needles are removed.  The other thing is here an alcohol pad is put between the access and the gauze during the bleed out.  I think it's just an extra step for infection prevention.  

"Why Leave Us Alone", Five Special. We used to go see the play at Orthea's on 8 Mile in the 80's. Damn that was a long time ago..lol. Imagine my surprise seeing my old friend, Tony "T Money" Green , , and neighbor plaing the bass and directing the group.  :-)  And when I say old, I mean I've known him since we were 6 or 7. Lol. He's still a sweetheart. One day I'll go over the musicians I grew up with. I'm kinda thrown for a loop that so many of them became wildly successful professionals. Proud of them all!!

So of course I have more stories from Vegas. I'm just glad to be back at my regular time at MY dialysis unit. I was glad to see my module group. They welcomed me back. <3.  Glad to see MY techs and nurses.  Lol. Well, I guess if I have to go to dialysis, I might as well get along with the others here. We really are some kind of family who spends 4 hours 3 days a week with each other. I bet you can't say that about your friends and family! And this includes the staff.  That, too, is a topic for another day. 

Signing off with "There Goes My Baby", Usher...one of my favorite songs by Usher.  Hey. Thank me for bringing some of the warm Vegas weather back.  I couldn't bring it all, but I did what I could!!  ;-)   Lol

Have a fabulous day!!

The "It Was a Great Christmas", edition.

iPad shuffled to "I Can't Help It", Michael Jackson. Such a pretty song. Written by Stevie Wonder. I guess Stevie had a lot of songs inside. :)   So, how was your Christmas?  I last spent the holiday with my parents in 2010.  I missed 2011 because Dad was scheduled for hip replacement surgery 2 weeks after Christmas.  The plan was Brian and I would go out there and help Mom take care of Dad during his recovery. On December 24, 2011, Mom fell trying to get up out of a chair.  EMS was called and she was taken to the hospital. She ended up with a stent in her heart, was dehydrated, and wouldn't eat.  She was placed into a rehab facility for recovery, because Dad couldn't take care of her due to his bad hip.  Brian and I did make it out there in early January.

December 2012, I was recovering from kidney failure. The only places I was going was to dialysis and assorted doctors. Mom was in a nursing home.  Dad picked up a take out meal and had dinner with her.  I sent her a little Christmas tree for her room. This year, my family went to spend Christmas with Dad. Yay!  I cooked a Christmas dinner like the kind we used to have when Mom cooked. I fixed potato salad. Note, 5 pounds of potatoes is waaaay to much for 4 people. I found fresh corn, so I cooked that, off the cob.  Dad said he liked stuffing with gravy. I cooked a jumbo pan. We froze half. He wanted candied sweet potatoes.  Done. Still enough to freeze. I used 5 yams. It was a lot. Lol. My family loves macaroni and cheese.  We inadvertently made two trays. One got frozen.  Dad likes green beans.  I've mastered that, so he got that.  We made just enough. :)    Got the smallest ham and a roasted turkey breast from Honey Baked ham. It's still a lot of meat!  Had rolls, cranberry sauce, pumpkin pie and an apple pie. Yeah,we overshot..big time!!  I could have feed 5 more people easily.  Lol.  But he does gave a lot of frozen leftovers now. ;-)  And yes, we got this all done working around my dialysis times. 

"Tilt Ya Head Back", Nelly and Christine Aguillera.  That's a mighty big voice coming out of that tiny little lady.  Lol. Yeah, I needed to watch what I ate. Mac and cheese, phosphorus.  Potato salad, potassium.  Sweet potatoes, potassium. Ham, sodium. Ah well.  I tried everything except the ham. I had it forThanksgiving.  The results were not good.   :-(  

We got Dad a tablet.   He loves it.  The good news is we got him wireless in summer of 2012. :)   He was good to go. He's figuring out his apps.  Shawn also got him a Facebook account. He's questioning some of the Facebook nonsense, but he's learning it.  Daffy is an 87 year old techie. Lol. 

It was a quick 10 days. I enjoyed every minute.  I was with my family.  And I'm functioning just fine with ESRD...at the moment.  I'm still dying, but I'm enjoying living right now!

Signing off with The Stylistics, "People Make The World Go Round". Another one of my favorite groups.  Lol. Have a wonderful weekend!

The "Christmas Eve and I'm Dialyzing", edition.

iPod shuffled to Blue Magic, "What's Come Over Me". Another Thom Bell group. Well it's Christmas Eve and I'm at dialysis. Like I've been on other holidays.  The holidays where my centers close are Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years Day. All other holidays are dialyzing days. After all, we need our artificial kidneys.  So of course I get here nice and early and on time and there's a problem with the water.  Water is a nessicity in the functioning of the dialysis machines. No water. No dialysis. The problem was fixed about 1/2 hour after my chair time was to start. Merry Christmas Eve!! Yeah well, a 1/2 hour isn't to kill me. The corn and potato salad are done. Stuffing and yams today.  We're still on schedule.

A few days ago I mentioned the process of removing the needles. It seems the techs and nurses all have their own methods, within the protocols. The machine is stopped, to stop the blood flow.  The 1st needle out is the last needle in and the last needle out is the 1st needle in. "Georgy Porgy", Eric Benet' featuring Faith Evans.  Cool video. The tech gets a few gauze pads and folds them up. Some put an alcohol square on the folded gauze. My skin has been reacting to so much alcohol lately, so I've requested betadine. Anyway, the first needle is carefully pulled out and the gauze is applied with pressure. Making sure that the needle hole is covered. This is important...covering the hole.  Lol.  Once the tech is confident that the gauze is in the right place, we transfer off so I can apply the pressure. Oh yeah, before this process begins, the but a sterile glove on my right hand....so I can apply pressure to the left arm. 

This is the fun part.  Guessing when the bleeding stops. Guess too soon, and it's a gusher!   Heh, when I first started with the smallest needles, I peeked and the blood spurted up!  I was startled and my tech laughed. :)  Now with larger established holes, it can be a pretty impressive flow. Once the flow stops, I apply the band aids then call the tech over to take the last needle out and repeat the process.  That's one way.  I've had techs take out both needles at the same sitting. They tape the gauze to my arm applying pressure with the tape and I'll still apply additional pressure with my fingers.  The bleeding stops anywhere from 5-30 minutes. Since getting the buttonholes, the bleed out is about 5 minutes per buttonhole.  Lol. So close to leaving, but gotta wait for the bleeding to stop.  They give us gauze alcohol and band aids or tape, though, for those just in case of "issues" once we leave. 

"Whip It", Devo. Imagine how tickled we were when we found out Mark Motherbaugh of Devo wrote the music for Rugrats.  Lol.  Christmas Eve is my parents anniversary. They would have been married 58 years today. <3  December events, Shawn's birthday, 12-12, my birthday, 12-17, the anniversary, 12-24 and Christmas, 12-25.  One big celebration!  :-)

Photo of the two needles for reference. Signing off with "Crazy on You", Heart. Oh yeah, check out James Brown's version of "The Christmas Song".   ;-)   Have a great holiday!!!

The "Dialysis on Sunday..Again", edition.

iPod shuffled to "Portuguese Love", Teena Marie.  This is my favorite song by her.  I wore out the cassette tape. Literally wore it out!  Look how we've progressed from LPs, 8 tracks, cassettes, CDs, and now digital. We lugged giant stero systems off to college. Now my entire music library is stored on 1.5 x 4 inch skinny little metal thing....and in a "cloud". Lol. And I'm sticking little soft plastic "buds" in my ears to listen to music.  And it sounds great.  I'm hearing things I never heard on the songs before!

The change in schedule is disruptive, but I just have to take it. Late times on off days. Just gotta do it. What choice do I have....other than plan for it and around it. I cooked the corn yesterday.  We picked up the ham early today.  Good thing, too.  The line grew immediately after we entered. Lol. I'm going to fix the potato salad tomorrow. It always tastes better the next day, anyway. After all the flavors get settled and absorbed.  Stuffing and candied sweet potatoes on Christmas Eve.  Green beans, mac and cheese, and gravy on Christmas Day.  Lol. My stomach started grumbling.  "I'm So Proud", The Main Ingredient. Sounds like pre Cuba Gooding.  I guess I could check...... They are good before him and good after.  And I forgot the Impressions did this song first.  Lol. Now which version of the Impression?  Pre or post Jerry Butler / Curtis Mayfield era?  

Lol. DMX. I HAVE to skip this.  I'll start joining in at the top of my lungs. Lol. "Y'all Gonna Make Me Lose My Mind".  In the desert I am even more thirsty, but somehow I'm controlling it. You know what's nice?  7-11 has small size slurpees. <3. It satisfies the thirst and helps when I get warm....because, you know, it's hard to figure out to wear in the desert in the winter. Lol. You can't catch a clue from residents because they are dressed across the spectrum. In Target...lady in tank top...another lady in a pea coat. <shrugs shoulders>. 

I've learned how to use the scanner...don't judge.  So I'll put a few photos up. Not sure which ones. You can ask me about them.  Stay warm, have some kids shovel the snow, have a great day/evening.  Signing off with "That's The Way of the World", Earth Wind and Fire".  "You find peace of mind when you look way down in your heart and soul..."  :-)

The "Time to Start The Holiday Schedule Again", edition.

iPod shuffled to "Just My Imagination (Running Away From Me)", The Temptations. Listen to those strings. I think it's pretty cool that Barry Gordy got musicians from the Detroit Symphony Orchestra to play for Motown.

We found some photo albums my mom squirreled away.  Photos from when I was a baby through maybe age 7-8. Photos of my cousins when we were kids. We're going to scan them in and I'm posting them.  Lol. Me and Karen, when we were babies.  Photos of us with Santa.  Photos of my brother as a young teen. Photos of us dressed yo the nines for Easter. One of the jackpot photos is of my Uncle and my dad dressed in all their golf attire finery. Pretty sure their outfits outshone the game!  Lol. I had a ball going over the photos with Shawn. 

There were also photos of young Shawn.  And Brian. And Pat.  Lol. Those will get scanned in also. We even found one of our old poodle, Clark, barking as his photo was taken. Photos of Mom, Dad, my grandparents, and aunts and uncles. :)

So I have the button holes for the needles access. It's pretty ok. The stick doesn't hurt, but the tech has to remove the scab. Imagine someone picking 2 scabs off of you 3 days a week. Well, in reality, it doesn't hurt me. I guess I have a tolerance for pain. When I arrive, I wash the arm and apply alcohol swaps on the button holes.  This helps to prevent infection and loosens up the scab. "Never Can Say Goodbye", The Jackson Five". I've always liked flute weaving through the song. Also, this a song that is hard to mess up. I've liked most versions I've heard.  The button hole sticks don't  hurt and the bleeding after removal is much shorter. I'm not sitting in the chair for 15-20 minutes waiting for access to stop bleeding. Lol. One day I'll go over the needle removal process. 

The button hole access is created by a single person cannulating the same spot in the fistula for several weeks.  It's mature now and that's a good thing. My tech has been out since Thanksgiving.  With the exception of the angioplasty day, which was not the fault of the button holes,  there haven't really been any issues. Some techs are more adept at cannulating and short of the ones I just don't want near me, it's been good. 

Have a good day.  Signing off with....The Dramatics, "Welcome Back Home". You can't mess with perfection. "I'm the one that loves you".

The "I Had A Wonderful Birthday!", edition.

iPod shuffled to Johnny Guitar Watson, "A Real Mother For Ya".  "Rents goin up higher, got the parents lying. I'll pay ya tomorrow".  Discovered him on WGPR. No other station played him.  And even though Eric B says his songs all sound alike, I still like him.

Yesterday was my birthday. Dad told me I was looking at 60. The he stated he was looking at 90. Lol. He said nevermind and dropped the subject. :-D  Last year I almost didn't make it..blah blah blah.  Well I'm here now. I had a nice quiet celebration. Maybe I'll have a 60th birthday party. Had a nice one at 30. Lol. That was awhile ago.  Ok. It'll be in Vegas, so save up. You have a few years. We'll celebrate our fabulous lives!  Lives well lived. :-)

Yesterday we woke up.  The first thing I do is give the dog some loving. She insists on it!  Then Brian takes her out. We have coffee and I have a bagel...with chipotle cream cheese. It has a little kick. I tried the jalapeño cream cheese, but it didn't work with hot coffee {shudder}.  "Give Up The Funk (Tear The Roof Off The Sucker)", Parliament.  "We gonna turn this mother out".  I opened my gifts. When we were at Macy's a few weeks ago, (joyfully) pointed out things I'd like. I received 2 of them. Some warm slippers and Estée Lauder perfume and the gift pack. <3   The day was quiet and calm. Just being with Brian was great.  As far as gifts, mom had favorite store.  She'd pick out items she liked.  The staff would hold it for her.  Mom would the send dad to select some items. Dad would go and just purchase everything!  Lol. 

I got quite a few birthday wishes on Facebook. lol. Facebook is good for something besides being a massive time sink. I am humbled by all of the Facebook greetings.    Greetings from someone who walked me to school in kindergarten, someone who was in Sunday School with me, elementary school friends, high school and college friends. Sorority sisters, people from my different jobs.  Friends I've met online, from gaming.  Relatives from all sides.  Thank you!  I was also tickled by how I was referenced. Pat, Patrice, and Patsy. Depending on when you met me determines what you call me. I actually have no preference.  I don't like Patty, though. Ugh. I was called Patsy as a child. I was named after my cousin Patricia.  My Perry family likes to recycle names lol. I am little Patsy. I stand almost a foot over Big Patsy. Lol. It's always a joke at family reunions. Most of friends call me Pat. I had to switch to Patrice when I started a jib and there were already 5 Pats there. Lol. All of them Patricia.  I appreciated being Patrice. :-).  Thank you. <3

"Ordinary Joe", Terry Callier. "I've seen a sparrow get high, and waste his time in the sky. He thinks it's easy to fly. He's just a little bit freer than I".  We spent a quiet day. Visited a book store. Had lunch. I had a nap when we got home. Later we had a dinner and Brian got me caramel cake. My favorite. Yes better than chocolate. ;-)   

Oh yeah, I need a dialysis reference. I don't really have one. Doing ok.  My labs are ok. I need a little more calcium, but calcium rich foods are also phosphorus rich foods.  Lol. It's not dire, all numbers are in the good range.  Calcium is just on the low side of normal.  

Photo of me 40 years ago...when I had hair.  Lol. 

Signing off with "You And I", Rick James. Now that's a party starter!!!  Have a fabulous Wednesday. Stay warm.  :)

The "It's A Quiet Monday", edition.

iPad shuffled to "Sweet Thing", Rufus Featuring Chaka Khan.  Still trying figure where Rufus went....  I was thinking about what was going on a year ago.  I was getting ready for the 2nd surgery on the fistula.  I'd had the surgery a week before.  However the original fistula clotted immediately. ;-(  I also recall the surgeon's nurse wanted me to have the staff here check the site. My tech informed me it wasn't her job. The doctor's office called me and asked how the fistula was doing and was the bandaged changed. I told her that the staff here said it wasn't their job.  I guess doc's office called. My bandaged got changed.  Sadly the fistula had to get fixed. 2 surgeries in 2 weeks. Brian and I had made plans to go out for dinner to celebrate our anniversary and my birthday.  Instead I was back at Sinai-Grace.  By this time I was real tired of the hospital. ;-(.  You know, at that time, my world was doctors and dialysis. Still using the walker.  Well, that was then.  Now I'm going to mentor dialysis patients. :-)

Aretha Franklin, "Ain't No Way". Love this song.  It highlights just how powerful her voice is.   The people who attended the class were selected by social workers at their clinics. Four of us have been on dialysis less than 18 months, one for 10 years, and one was a transplant recipient.  Our professions included teacher, nurse, chef, social worker, communications profession and technology. I thought the group was intelligent and knowledgable.  

I enjoyed being with other dialysis patients. Exchanging stories, experiences, suggestions and tips.  Learning from each other.  This doesn't occur in the clinics. People come in, turn on their TV and go to sleep. It was nice to talk with people with a shared experience and how they handle issues.  Someone brought up having support groups at the clinics.  I think that happens when you're in tthe reception area waiting for your chair.  Except first shift where we walk right on in. :-)  "When You Think of Me", Eric Benet.  "It's never to hard to make friends when you're making Benjamins".  

So I went dialysis on Saturday instead of Friday. I pretty much know or recognize most of the people on MWF on my shift and a lot on second shift. On Saturday was a bunch of people I'd never seen before. Lol. I even had a tech I'd never had. However in the module next to us was a very familiar tech.  Which was good.  She had to stick my tricky venous acces. :)

Well that's it for today. Signing off with Aretha, "I Never Loved a Man (The Way I Love You)".  Let the kids shovel the snow!!

The "Brian and I Are Officially Peer Mentors and We Have the Badges toProve It!", edition.

iPod shuffled to "Joy", Isaac Hayes. That's a pleasant surprise.  :-).  Lots of snow this morning.  And it's gonna keep on coming. And of course we have an event we must attend. Immediately after dialysis. Across town. And there is already a lot of snow. With much more to come. Yay life.!!!  Lol. Yes I'm dialyzing on Saturday morning...at 9:00 AM. But that's because we had the Peer Mentoring training yesterday.  All day. 9 to 5.  The training program was done by the National Kidney Foundation of Michigan for Greenfield Health Systems.

We?  Had training?  Yes. I learned how to mentor my peers and Brian learned how to mentor his peers. You know my peers are dialysis patients. But who are Brian's peers?  His peers are caregivers. :-)   There were 2 caregivers at training. My "helicopter" husband and a "helicopter" wife.  We represented centers within the Greenfield a Health Systems dialysis centers, with each of us initially serving our own centers. We learned empathetic listening, which appeared to be a difficult skill to learn.  Lol. Listening and hearing seemed to be a challenge. I'm not saying this in a bad way, but most people don't do active listening.  They want to respond midway through.  Remember when we learned, "seek first to understand, then to be understood"?  When asked, "How do you feel?", people would launch into an experience. It seemed it was difficult for people to express there own feelings. Just, "I feel; happy, sad, angry, upset, frustrated, etc   You try it. Reflective listening was also a challenge.  "I hear you saying....".  Or " I understand that  you are feeling...."  So we did a lot of role playing with feedback.  "Keep On Loving Me", The Whispers. Lol. I guess The Dramatics are taking a vacation. The Whispers stepped up.  I think we'll be fine mentors. And we'll get better with time. Oh yeah, they gave us fancy badges on lanyards. 

So Saturday at the clinic. I'm a visitor.  First I need to thank the staff for accommodating me. I made my request on Wednesday to come in on Saturday. I know from experience that they may not be able to make the assignment to as late as the day requested. I called yesterday.  The charge nurse said she was working on it as we spoke. The early chair was dependent on if a patient was still in the hospital.  The nurse called back and let me know a 6AM (first shift) was not available. The good news is the patient was discharged. I'm not wishing a hospital on anyone. Anyway, I did get a 9AM slot. Good enough.  I walked in and staff are , "why are you here today". The concern was I needed an extra day because I had excess fluid. People have been known to have so much fluid they need to come in on extra days. They've retained 7-10+ kilos.  Heck, I don't even know how you do that. Drink nonstop?  But no, I just missed my day because of training. :-)

So Brian and I will be practicing mentoring skills with each other, because one or both of will called to mentor. :-)  Signing off with Tears for Fears, "Everybody Wants to Rule the World". Make some good comfort food.  Stay warm.  Enjoy a good ol' snowy Michigan weekend. :-D. 

The, "The Kid's Birthday is Tomorrow", edition.

iPod shuffled to Sergio Mendes and Brasil 66, "The Look of Love". I liked them when I was a kid. I still like them. When my kid was into Latin music, she discovered them and I rediscovered them. :). We even listened to and watched videos of the Mexican bands that had tubas. The name of the style isn't coming to me at the moment. And....tomorrow my kid's birthday.

I think she's great, but I know I'm looking through the eyes of a mommy. She tells me, "You're such a mom".  Guilty. I compare her to me at that age. She is the anti-Pat. And that's a good thing.  Lol. Those of you who knew me at the ages of 20-28 know what I'm talking about.  Lol. I wonder where the time went.  I had an infant in my arms a few days ago.  Now she's living in another state!  Good thing she's far enough away that I'm not trying to get to see her every weekend. But we do have more communications options then we did when I was away. We call, of course, but we have our phones with us 24/7. We text, we message on Facebook and we Skype.  Lol. She pushed us into Skyping and then laughs at us when we get confused. Rofl. Hey we used to be the young ones who were the technology experts. Lol lol.  Oh yeah, it's not real convenient to get from Detroit to Champaign.  No matter the mode, you have a layover in Chicago. Unless you drive. And that drive is old and tedious after several trips now. Lol 

She was destined to do technology. When she was a baby, Brian and I would hold her in our laps when we were on the computer. I have a photo somewhere of her at about 6 months sitting on Brian's  lap at the computer and both of them staring intently at the screen. We got her age appropriate software. Carmen Sandiego, anyone?  When my aunt babysat her, she showed the aunt how to use the VCR.  Yeah she knew how to use it. One day we found a big fat crayon in our VCR. Lol. We couldn't understand why the tape wasn't going in. :-/   Lol.  She also stuck a credit card into the disk drive on the computer. The Whispers, "I Only Meant To Wet My Feet".   "...but you pulled me in.  The waters of love run deep." Just go with it. I look for Brian for dance on Whispers songs. <3. 

Well now she's teaching us and introducing things to us. We are so proud of her. I used pray that I was able to raise her to be an independent and productive adult.  So far so good. Now I want her to be happy and content in her life. Again, so far, good. Oh yeah, this is how you know you're kid has morphed into adulthood. She asked for luggage for her birthday.  Lol. 

My Wendell is going home today, after 3 months in the hospital. Yay!!!  Friday, I'm going to the Peer Mentoring workshop.  It's all day, I'll be dialyzing on Saturday..no blog on Friday. 

Signing off with Beyoncé, "Deja Vu". Huh..the iPad put that doo hickey on Beyoncé's name. Lol. Enjoy you're Wednesday. Stay warm!!

The "The More information I Get, The Scarier ESRD Becomes", edition.

iPod shuffled to "American Boy", Estelle featuring Kanye West. " Don't like his baggy jeans..."  Yep. Lol.   I floated into the negatives this weekend. It really can't be helped. I submit that all dialysis patients struggle with this. A constant fight with depression and hopelessness. Um. I forgot to recharge the iPod, so I had to change to the iPad. Opening song, "Hot in Herre", Nelly.  This is a party starter, even for my generation. Lol. How do I know this?  It happened at a party I went to. I'm sure our kids would have been mortified. Too bad. Lol. 

So after that I jump back to the depression fight. This weekend I was thinking about spontenaiety is out.  I have to plan for everything. I made the arrangements for Christmas travel in October. I had to turn in my travel paperwork to my social worker 4-6 weeks in advance. A dialysis center has to be found. Insurance has to be approved. Even then, when I get to my destination, I have 5 hours on 3 days where I am out of commission....if I'm lucky.  I may still get the "dialysis wipe out".   When I travel, I have to take my dialysis bag with me. A blanket is mandatory.  

I know.  You say, "Pat.  It sounds like you're doing fine."  Well, what choice do I have?  This is my reality. I will NEVER recover from kidney failure. The best I can hope for is a transplant...and realistically, that will be years.  

I also read about having a disaster plan for dialysis patients. A catostrophic disaster could mean my death. If I can't get dialysis after  number of days, my body will just break down. Toxins will take over.  And if I'm thirsty now, I'd have to really cut back, because I won't be able to get rid of the fluids. I've already experienced that. Pulmonary edema. Drowning by my own body.  Ugh. As frightening as this is, I need to know about it and be prepared. This is what I need to know to stay alive.  So yeah, I do as much as I can. I'm trying to live my life to the fullest.  I can die at any time. I cannot get better. 

Bleah. I like my iPod better for music. I can skip songs faster. Lol. Then I wonder about why I downloaded some songs if I skip over them all the time?  Moving to positives. Shawn is in Champaign, Illinois, 2 hours from Indianapolis. They got no snow. None. The town about 20 miles east got snow.  Go figure. Cameo, "I Just Want to Be". Saw them back in the early 80's with Roger and Zapp. The concert was a party.  One of the best concerts ever!!  Outdoor concert. Kinda smokey. ;-)  

And I went to visit my Wendell yesterday. I texted him I was coming and asked if wanted anything.  He asked for fried chicken. Woot. That's a definite sign he's getting better!!!  Lol. It was torture riding in the car with that fried chicken. We got there.  He had on his shoes, hanging out the bed. He's been walking and he just looked better and was animated!!!  He's ready to home.  I'm glad he started eating again. And like me, his appetite has come back with a vengeance. Maybe he'll be home before Christmas.  It's kinda nice being able to talk and commiserate with someone close who is sharing the same medical issues.  He showed me and explained peritoneal dialysis. He's now asking me about hemodialysis and fistulas. 

For the record, Brian and Shawn don't allow me to wallow in self pity. And I can't afford to anyway. Signing off with "Killer Joe", Quincy Jones and his Orchestra". Also like the Manhattan Transfer version.  :-)  Have a great day.  Oh, to my friends and family in California and Texas who got snow and ice this weekend...."oh boo hoo". Lol lol. 

Oh yeah..the wifi at the center was wonky this morning, so the entry is late today.  

The "Brian's Been in the Paper 3 Days This Week (lol)", edition.

iPod shuffled NWA, "Straight Outta Compton". Ren was as good as Dre, Ice Cube, and Eazy E. Guess he went in another direction after they broke up. Yes, I looked him up. So yeah, Brian's photo was in the paper Sunday, Wednesday and Thursday. I call him the official "face" of the retirees.  Lol. How did we end up in the paper?  A few weeks ago, we went to a meeting for the retirees in Sterling Heights. The organization had 2 meetings that week. One on the west side, one on the east side. I couldn't make the west side one because of dialysis.

We stopped to get coffee then went to the venue.  We thought we were getting there early (1/2 hour). Lol. When you have retirees, you have people with time on their hands. It.was.crowded.  Brian dropped me off. I'm inside following the crowd. A lady stops me and introduces herself as Susan Tompor of the Free Press. She asks if she could interview me after the meeting, I said sure. I hadn't seen the point of view of the retirees regarding the bankruptcy in the media. I could at least let her know our confusion and how we were finding out more from the media than we were from the City. I gave her my cell number and headed to the room. I got in line to register, paid my dues...I'd already gave $$ to the legal fund. Saw an old friend.  "With Open Arms", Rachelle Ferrell". Her range rivals Mariah Carey. Her voice and the arrangement...pure perfection. 

The friend tells me they expected around 500 people the previous day. 1500 retirees showed up. And they were on target for 1500 more for the 2nd meeting. Yeah, so many people...standing room only.   The officers passed on info, but things were changing so rapidly that what was true the previous week, was no longer relevant. It got to the point that the answer to most questions was, "we won't know until the judge's ruling". But here's the thing. We were being rushed to make decisions that affected our health care and finances, but City was giving us incomplete information or none at all.  We left the meeting none the wiser. Let me make it clear that it was not the fault of the retiree association. The meeting was planned when some information came out. Within a week that information was null and void. Everything had changed. 

So anyway, the reporter called a few days later.  She and a photographer came over and interviewed me and Brian for about an hour. A whole lot was left out of the article, but I think she got the gist of what we think about the situation and the possible impacts. The article was published Sunday. She called me Tuesday after the ruling to get my opinion so I was quoted on Wednesday and Brian's photo was on the front page. Rofl. Finally Brian was part of a montage of photos on Thursday. Lol. Oh yeah, Brian got a call from Guy Gordon of WDIV for an interview request. He declined. I laughed. 

I'm off the rage cliff. I guess I needed to vent. And my blood pressure is down. Wednesday is the day the nephrologist visits us at the center. He checked my machine and saw the my blood pressure was elevated all morning. How high?  I was averaging around 185/110!  That was way off and out of the norm since I'd been trending ridiculously low. Anyway doc changes my blood pressure meds. I took them yesterday and now I'm back to normal. Kidney failure is doing a number on me.  "Another Star", Stevie Wonder.  He is so talented. 

I got my Medicare card and some info. The mailing instructed me to go and apply for Medicare Part D, drug coverage. I went to the web site. I was confused. The Medicare site gave me 31 Part D plans and about 30 Medicare Advantage Plans and the associated premiums. WTH?  Lol. I called Blue Cross instead. Lol. I'm good for now because the City is covering us until at least February 28, 2014. I'll revisit this in late January / early February.  Just for clarification. ESRD, End Stage Renal Disease, is considered a disability because not to many of us can afford to pay for dialysis out of picket. Also, apparently my meds come in at $17K a year! The cost of one of the meds I take is exorbitant. 

I need to shop for my 2 kids this weekend for the Adopt a Child event. I'm looking forward to shopping and the event!  Have a great weekend. Signing off with, "Just Gets Better With Time", The Whispers. Slow dance time!!!

The "The City is Bankrupt and I'm Supposed to Share the Pain", edition.

Bullshit.  I'm not in a "Support Detroit" frame of mind.  iPod shuffled to "Standing On The Top", The Temptations featuring Rick James. Clearly the retirees are not standing on the top.  It seems as if we're underneath the boot getting the life squished out of us. Apparently retirees on fixed incomes can weather an income cut just as much as a bank or a business can lose a profit for the shareholders. Heh, my blood pressure is up this morning.  Seriously. Here's the deal. When I'm hooked up to the machine, part of that hook up is a blood pressure cuff on my right arm ( the needles are in the left arm), taking my blood pressure every 15 minutes. I've been here 30 minutes.  My blood pressure is elevated. I am so pissed. I have to talk myself off the rage cliff.

"Oh My God", Mark Ronson featuring Lily Allen. Great horns. We'll see where this goes. I don't believe the cuts will be outrageous, but they will happen.  We're looking at 8-25%. That's not real cool if your check is $700 / month.  So here we go. Pensions start getting taxed by the state a few years ago.  Now retirees have to pay for their health coverage. Depending on the income and coverage, the premiums can go up to $1000/month. And let's face it, old people get sick. Do I gamble on my health and opt for the policy with the lower premium, but higher deductible and out of pocket costs.  Or do I hedge my bets with a more comprehensive plan. Someone getting $700 month Is already SOL.  Oh yeah and on top of that, the pension is getting cut. The monthly pay is down to $575 if the cut is 25%. Doesn't sound like shared pain. It sounds like disposable people. RAGE. 

Ok. I'm coming down off the rage cliff. "Funkin' For Jamaica", Tom Browne. "Betty Boop, Boop Boop be doop". Opening horn.  I can name that song in one note.  Lol. Head bop. :)  So when my blood pressure is high, I'm not allowed to recline <huge frown>. I have to sit up.  Let's hope the pressure goes down. I'm not trying to sit up for 3.5 hours.  

Well, that's it for today. I need to focus on something else. I don't need to have a stroke worrying about this.  It would be just what Orr and Snyder would like. One less retiree to worry about. >:-(

Signing off with "When You Get Right Down to It", Phyllis Hyman. "When you get right down to it, you're not in love anymore". Damn skippy. Am real indifferent to Detroit. Detroit doesn't give a hoot about its retirees. I can reciprocate the feeling.  Lol.  OMG. I need to stop and log off. 

Have a great day. I'm going to give it my best shot!

The "It's Always Something, But It's OK (It Has To Be), edition.

iPod shuffled to "What Becomes Of The Brokenhearted", Jimmy Ruffin.  That's a classic, isn't it?  Good sing along song, too. You know, the song you sing at the top of your lungs when you're alone in the car. ;-)   Well that was a nice long weekend. My kid arrived in town on November 21 (our wedding anniversary...how was that fior a gift!!). She left to go back to Champaign on Saturday, November 30. It sounds like that was a long visit.  But time flew. I'd tell you she stayed about 2 hours before she to leave.  Lol. Ah well, she got her birthday presents early.

I think I'm dealing with kidney failure pretty well, but it's just always there. I feel like I'm being denied water.  So of course that's all I want. No coffee, no soda, no juice, just a big honking glass of ice cold ice water. Unlimited quantities. I get over it. I know.  I've whined about this before. Jill Scott, "A Long Walk".  Loved her the first time I heard her.  I'm also having a mild issue with my fistula button holes. The bottom access, the arterial, is fine, beautiful, just great. The top access, the venous, is my problem child. :-(  It runs for while, then the pressure goes up.  By the time I'm finished, the buttonhole is leaking.  The nurse says it sounds like I'm clotting at the needle. She increased the heparin (blood thinner) for the last hour of the run. Hope it works (crosses fingers).   You remember heparin.  I got injected with it several times a day when I was in the hospital in ICU. The injection I got in my stomach. To prevent clots since I was confined to the bed.  And no, it didn't hurt. 

I'm thinking my pain tolerance is pretty high. I winced while I waited for the injection in my stomach. Lol. It was nothing.  I get stuck with 2 needles 3 times a week. No big deal. In addition to the needles, the scabs on my buttonhole have to be removed.  Each tech who has removed the scabs is concerned that it hurts...but it doesn't. Mary J Blige, "Take Me As I Am". It took me years to warm up to Mary. The young women at my hip hop hair salon loved her. To get the flavor of the salon, they loved to watch "Menace to Society".  Lol. My hairdresser had most of us ("mature" customers) come in on Sunday. Lol.  If I say more, I'll sound really judgey and they were really nice young ladies. Interesting to see the, as 40+ women now. 

Last night I had breathing issues.  Not emergency room worthy, but every now and then I had to take deep breaths. Yep, directly related to fluid retention. I'm confused. I pee a lot, so how am I still retaining enough fluid to affect my breathing?  It could be that I had 1 dialysis session between Tuesday  and today.  Dialysis on Tuesday, Friday, and now today. Lol.  And it was during a holiday.  Oh, I tried a piece of ham. I hadn't had any in over a year. OMG.  It was delicious. Honey Baked ham.  And it was quite salty.  Lol. No more for me. Probably why I was thirsty on Friday.  No more ham for me. Well, maybe 1 slice next year.  We'll call it a yearly treat. :).  Dionne Warwick, "Walk On By", 1964. 50 years ago. I also like the Isaac Hayes version. I need to download that. Lol. Looking on Wikipedia, there are 12 versions of the song!!

Well, today, I have to investigate Medicare gap coverage.  Medicare covers all expenses related kidney failure, but only 80% of other medical expenses.  Signing off with Kashif, "Help Yourself to My Love", 1983.   I love the vocals and arrangement.  Have a great day. Drink a glass of ice water for me!!!

The "Yesterday Was a Wonderful Day", edition.

iPod shuffled Steely Dan,  "Babylon Sisters". I've been a Steely Dan fan a very long time. Unique style.  Unique sound. And no one wails a note like Donald Fagen. :)

Thanksgiving day, 2013. It was just Brian, Shawn and me. We hadn't had Thanksgiving with Mom and Dad for a while. When they first moved to Las Vegas, my family would go there for Thanksgiving and the parents would come here for Christmas.  That worked for a while, until the year Mom ended up with pneumonia. Took her about 3-4 months to recover. They never came back to Detroit in the winter after that.  We changed to going out there for Christmas.  We'd celebrate Thanksgiving with Brian's family. 

Last year changed even that. I was still using a walker and navigating the steps to Brian's mother's house was impossible. I fixed dinner with the help of my family. Looking back, I was pretty determined. I was trying to cook and I could barely stand for more than 5 minutes. Lol. I made stuffing, greens and jalapeño cornbread. Brian cooked a turkey!  We were extremely renal safe. Which was fine, my numbers were high across the board. 

Growing up, we'd alternate the holiday meals with us and my Aunt Imogene's family. Best memories ever!  :-)  I couldn't get enough of Aunt Imogene's sweet potatoes!  We chuckled because even when us cousins were married, we still sat at the kids table. Lol. We were still the young folks.  We even got militant about remaining there. Lol. The only new kid was Shawn, anyway.  The Spinners, "Could It Be Im Falling In Love?"  My favorite song by them. I knew a guy who'd play is bongos with this song. 

Anyway years go by and things change.  I learned how to make everything my mom made...except for the turkey. Have to check with my cousins to see if they've cooked a turkey. We were married, in our 30s and still hadn't tackled a holiday dinner ( and pretty proud of it-lol)  Our moms weren't about to give that up. Lol. I've duplicated an entire meal and have had my inlaws over. One day I'll tell you about the Christmas dinner I had for 20 people. I can do it and do it well, but it's a lot of work. Whew!!

So my problem now is cooking for 3 people. For Thanksgiving this year I fixed the dressing on Wednesday.  Brian peeled potatoes and the soaked overnight...(remember the potatoes are chock full of potassium.  Soaking the potatoes "leeches" the potassium and makes them renal safe). On Thursday morning I started the vegetarian greens.  The Brian made mac and cheese.  I then started the potatoes and gravy. We got a small ham and turkey breast from Honey Baked Ham. We got rolls from Reen's and a caramel cake from Mrs Maddox. Yep. Way too much food. The cake is untouched. It looks like we tacked 1/8 th of the dressing, about 1/4 of the greens and potatoes and mac. Someone ate 1 roll. Lol. 2 circles of cranberry sauce served. Lots of ham and turkey left over. Lol. We could have had 4-6 people over and would have still had leftovers.  Lol.  

The good news is the meal was renal safe!!!  And there was no salt shaker on the table.  Woot!!!  Now watch my math here. I'm allowed about a teaspoon of salt a day. I used the some salt while cooking. I used about a teaspoon in the greens and a teaspoon in the potatoes. BUT. Consider the portions. We're getting about 12 servings, at least out of each dish. So I'm getting 1/12 teaspoon of salt per serving. Now the mac and cheese has salt, but I'm not over salting because of portion contro!!  And yeah, I had this discussion with my dietician. :-)  "All Day Music", War. Is there a song that is more mellow than this?  Lol. Everyone stops what they're doing and sits down to chill for 2 minutes and 38 seconds. Lol lol lol. 

So now it's leftover time. Yay!!  Oh yeah, I get to do it all over again for Christmas for Dad, except he gets potato salad and corn. Or whatever he wants.  He'll have leftovers for a while!! <3.  And yep, he got invited out for Thanksgiving. He called me from wherever he was. Sounded like folks were having a good time. :)

Time to sign off. My dialysis chair is nice and toasty. And think about my breakfast of leftovers when I get home. Lol. My tummy perked up. Have a fabulous day. Signing off with Jamie Foxx, "I Don't Need It". Did you know he was trained in classical piano?  He can't be all bad. Lol. 

The "I Went to a Piano Store. I Liked It. A Lot", edition.

iPod shuffled to Young MC, "Bust A Move".  "Got no money, you got no car, then you got no women, and there you are". Head bobbing hip hop. :)  Dialyzing on Tuesday.  I'm so confused. Lol. At least there are some familiar faces. Came in looking for the remote control.  They upgraded the tvs to cable. So of course someone stole ALL of the remote controls. :-/  Really?  REALLY?  My tech gave us all remotes that worked before cable. Now all they do is control the tv, but not the cable box. So I can turn on the tv, but I'm stuck with whatever channel it's on.  And I'm having an infomercial/palooza. I've got Cindy Crawford telling me about Dr Sebaghs melons.  I can buy the skin care system for the low price of $119!!!  I better get on that!!!  Oh, too bad I can't get to my credit card. Darn <snicker>.

And on Sunday, a guy on the shift after mine had to be taken to the hospital. His blood pressure dropped to 50/23. WTF?  Again, how is that even possible? :-(  The Dramatics, "Fall in Love, Lady Love".  /swoon.  Anyway, I'm hoping he gets better and we see him back here soon. He was cognizant  when EMS arrived. I told him to take care and be strong. A new guy was sitting next to him quietly freaking out. Welcome to dialysis.  iPod on jam..."So In Love With You", Jill Scott with Anthony Hamilton. <whisper> I'd sing this to Brian <3.  

Ok, the piano store. Why was I there?  Well Brian has been taking piano lessons and his recital was yesterday!  When I entered the store, it felt like magic!!  All those pianos. I had piano lessons for 12 years and never played again after I graduated from high school.  And yes I have a grand piano in my living room. But seeing all the pianos was a thing of wonder. Lol. And the I passed the case holding all the music. OMG, the memories came rushing back. John Thompson books, Schirmer's Library of Musical Classics. JS Bach, Beethoven, Debussy, Dvorak, Heller, Rachmaninoff and others. I was visibly excited.  Lol. Brian had to steer me to the recital area. But we passed pianos of all sizes and types and keyboards.  When it was time to go, I caressed pianos on the way out.  :)

The recital room was a nice size room with a stage. There were 6 different types of keyboards up there. Lol. They looked like 21st century organs. :)  Several people were practicing. So now I'm old school piano. The people had on their headphones while they were playing, so yeah, that's how 10 people can take "piano" lessons at the same time.  Lol lol. I think about 20 people performed for us. Brian asks me and Shawn if we're ok sitting through a recital for beginners. Well first of all, we're there to support him. But then, people, strangers, sat through my recitals for 12 years. Of course I'll stay and I'll enjoy it!!  Shawn had lessons as a child and she agreed.  I told him it had been payed forward and it was my turn. And let me tell you, it was a delightful treat!!

Stevie Wonder, "Do I Do".  The arrangement, the instruments, the vocals...a perfect song!!!  All of the students were retirees. They played from their books on these electric pianos.  So in my time, the left hand played an accompanying note or chord. These students played programmed chords. Lol. So the songs took on a jazz flavor, or country, or pop, or whatever was programmed in there. They played the same 5-6 songs. ..."Love Me Tender,", " When the Saints Go Marching In", "Music Music Music (Put Another Nickel in the Nickelodeon",  "Jingle Bells" and a few others.  The programmed chords gave each person a personalized song. :-)  There were flawless performances, there were jitters and stage fright. Most songs were recognizable. And no matter what, everyone completed their song.  And everyone received hearty applause. :-). And of course Brian was magnificent. He is now called Maestro. :-). And yeah, he signed up for the next class.  What makes him special is, he practiced on a traditional piano and had to transfer that to an electric keyboard with those chords. Well played, Brian. :)

Lol. That was long. But it had to done!!  I'll be back after Thanksgiving. Enjoy your day. I know I will. :-). Signing off with "Sexy Mama", The Moments ( who morphed into Ray, Goodman and Brown).  One of those songs from high school that made us blush. I wonder if it got played at any of our school dances?  I'll ask some of my classmates. ;)

Have a great holiday!!  

The, "Dialyzing on Sunday, But It's All Good", edition.

Ipod shuffled to Big Daddy Kane, "I Get The Job Done". "I work, baby". Hip hop.  Get the party started!    Brian introduced me to Big Daddy Kane. And yeah, my head is bobbing. Holiday dialysis schedule in effect. Several minor issues with the holiday schedule. And they are really minor.  First, my tech isn't here on these off days. We can get over that, but I didn't see any of my backup stickers this morning. My chair neighbor whose been having issues with his fistula for the last month was getting stuck by a stick team member I didn't recognize. After thinking about it for 30 seconds, I went looking through the clinic for someone I trusted.  I found one and asked her to come and stick me. By the way, my neighbor's stick didn't go. He gives it one time. He left with a "Cya Tuesday".  After my 5 stick day, I'm a 1-2 stick woman!

Run (I'm a Natural Distaster), Gnarls Barkley. This was my intro to CeeLo Green.  My other issue, and it's really a non-issue, is my TV schedule is off.  I watch the NBC station the entire time. Local news then seque into The Today Show, and finally about 10-15 minutes into Rachel Ray.  Today, I'd have way too much local news, and Today won't come on until 9:00. :-/  However, if this is one of my complaints, it really IS a nonissue. Lol. So what am I watching?  I'm having a Golden Girls marathon. 

:-)  Thank you, TVland. Although while typing, I'm listening to the iPod.....and typing.  I can multitask, but adding watching  TV while typing and listening is a bit too much for even me!  

Yesterday, I went to my see Wendell. He's doing so much better. He's eating and doing his physical therapy. That was a helluva infection.  He's ready to go home, which means he's over the hump and will be a willing participant in his recovery.  I so get being so sick that basic functioning is a huge effort.  He's coming back. He requested some more of my chicken salad. :)  "Sun Goddess" , Ramsey Lewis and Earth, Wind, and Fire. This is a signature song from my freshmen year at UM. <smile>. 

So you may be wondering how the City's bankruptcy is affecting us. Well, for sure it's been an adventure. I'm raging less, but I still do plenty of rage. Here's the thing. All of my dialysis care is covered.  Even my travel. We have reasonable copays. We're both covered by Brian's plan...until February 28, 2014. The City will give employees $125 / month (taxable) to purchase insurance on the healthcare marketplace.  If you've checked it out, the plans that would work for us, or are comparable to what we have know, cost more than what the City will give us....And with the possible cut in the pension checks (maybe around 25%), that means our "take home" pay is significantly cut.   We'll be ok, but here's the rub. This will happen to people who've been retired for 10 years or more, but their monthly pensions are small.  We're looking at people who get $1000 per month. So the $1000 / month gets knocked down to $750 /month.   But let's add in the $125 so were at $875. They will probably be eligible for the subsidy, but will be subject to the copays and deductibles. And you know, older people get sick. This sucks so much.  I'm stopping now because of the rage.  My blood pressure may spike.  I'll continue next time. 

Rick James, "Give It To Me Baby". The bass is strong in this one. Brian and I were trying to figure out our intro to bass. We discussed Parliament and Funkadelic. I decided I was hooked with Larry Graham of Sly and the Family Stone. I bought that first album around 1968. I heard funk, and I never looked back. :)

Have a great day and stay warm. Signing off with "Crazy on You", Heart. The guitar intro is nice.  I love their voices. :-)

The "I'm Enjoying My Music This Morning", edition.

iPod shuffled to "A Heart is a House For Love", The Five Heartbeats...aka The Dells. "Is there a heart in the house tonight?  Better listen to me, love doesn't come free". Still love the movie. :)  The clinic starts the Thanksgiving schedule on Sunday.  I usually go on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  The other schedule is Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday.  The staff needs to have the holiday off.  And from what I understand other clinics disregard holidays.  Some clinics have moved the shifts to earlier hours.  So anyway, my schedule for next week is Sunday, Tuesday, and Friday.  Which means the blog will be published oh those days.  The Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday people will come on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I call it equal opportunity disruption. Lol.  I recall this last year, but the whole dialysis thing was new to me and I didn't dwell on it.

"Turn The Beat Around", Vicki Sue Robinson. Break out the Candies mules,  Gloria Vanderbilt jeans and the NikNik and Roland shirts. Hah. Took you back, didn't I?  Lol. Disco ball!!!   Someone on the dialysis facebook I frequent drew a fantasy dialysis chair. She gave me permission to use it. It's drawn from a female point of view.  I like the idea of having a pedicure while I'm imprisoned in this chair!   And a food and beverage cart would be cool. I have a heated chair.  In my travels, my center is the only one with heated chairs!  My center is the only one that uses pillows to support the access arm.  Lol. They give you as many pillows as you want. :).  Except I don't like all those pillows, but other patients go for it!   I'll put in the photo of me in the chair again. The chair also has trays attached to both sides of the chair. Of course one is to place your arm and the arm pillow.  The other holds our "stuff". 

Stuff?  What stuff?  Well for me, it holds my iPad and iPod when I'm not using them. Holds my phone, my bag of candy, and my hat (it gets cold..or I get cold and need to put on a hat). Others have their thermos, a remote control for the TV, or even extra blankets.  Aretha Franklin, "I Say A Little Prayer".  I had to grow into liking Aretha.  Once I heard her live, I wondered what the hell was wrong with me?  In my defense, recordings can not even come close to the greatness of that voice. Lol. I just stopped typing to listen to her......

Short boring entry today. Getting ready for the holiday. Shawn came in last night. Ordered the rolls from Reen's. Did you know I used to work with Reen?  She was a computer operator. She'd bake stuff and sell it to us. She left and opened the bakery.  We'd give orders and she'd deliver our goodies every other Friday. Lol. She knew our payday.  I'm still not baking a turkey.  Honey Baked has a nice size turkey breast.  I'll also get a little ham for my family.  I'll cook dressing and greens and gravy. Brian's got the mac n cheese. I'm salivating. :)  I'm saving the potato salad for Christmas with dad. It's so labor intensive, but so good. Lol. It's my moms recipe, and she got it from my grandfather. And yes, Shawn knows how to make it. Four generations!!!  Vanessa Williams, "Dreamin'". I still like this song. Her voice is lovely and well, she's just very talented.  And gorgeous. 

Ok I've reread this to try to catch errors. I'll probably catch them later. Ah well. I tried. :).  Signing off with "Got To Be There", Michael Jackson".  "Got to be there when she says hello to the world".  I'm a Michael fan and will always be. So there. :)

Have a great weekend.  I know I will. :-D

The "Tomorrow is Our 26th Wedding Anniversay".

iPod shuffled to The Whispers (swoon), "In The Mood".  "This is what I do to get you in the mood, baby I'll do it all to get you the mood". Little racy fir 6:30 AM, but it's my iPod and I'll listen to what it gives me. So there.   Heh. I turned on the iPod, then typed the title. Forehead slap.  Lol. Whispers.  Anniversary.  So yeah, The Whispers seemed to be intown around our anniversary or my birthday.  I told you, for about 6-7 years, we'd see them every time they came to town. I like to grab Brian and dance with him when The Whispers come on. <3

So November 21, we'll celebrate our 26th wedding anniversary.  WARNING - Long convoluted and tortured explanation ahead.  Dad found photos mom had squirreled away. He brought them to Detroit in May. I just looked at them about 2 weeks ago. They were my long lost wedding photos. She took them to Vegas so we hadn't seen them in almost 24 years. I'll go into mom and her "attitudes" another day, but suffice to say she claimed the photos were hers. ;-x   That's right.  I hadn't seen the photos in over 20 years.  That being said, it was a delight to see them.  I bet you'd like to see them too, am I right?  

Still in the convoluted and tortured explanation. I want to scan them in and post them. I know my bridesmaids want to reminesce over their dresses (in my defense, it was 1987). Lol.  But I've never used the scanner because my child did it. "Classic (Better Than I Ever Been DJ Premier Remix)", Kanye West, Nas, KRS-One, and Rakim". "I'm everywhere you never been, and better than I ever been". Try saying that fast 5 times. Lol.  Well you say , Pat, it's time you learned how to use the scanner.  And I agree, except Shawn will be back in town Thursday!!!!! Lol. So in a few days, I'll publish photos of my wedding. :-)  The way we were. 

Last year, we'd made some pretty nice plans for our 25th anniversary. They didn't pan out.  My kidneys had other plans. 3 weeks prior, I was in ICU.  On November 21, 2012, I was still pretty much stuck in the bed. Brian got me an anniversary ring. <3  And without further ado, iPod shuffles to The a Whispers, again.  "It Just Gets Better With Time". Indeed. :-)  "Your love is rare and like the finest of sines, it just gets better with time".  No one told me that the love would grow over time. What a fabulous surprise!   So this year, my kid arrives in town on our anniversay, and I'm here to be with my little family. Lol. Today Brian and I are going to the store to get our cards. Being with the two of them is all the gift I need.  

Enjoy your day. Signing off with, "Baby, I'm For Real", The Originals. Huh.  When I'm out of this chair andI get home, I'm gonna dance with Brian. My iPod apparently is set to go and love Brian.  Lol.

The "The School Near the Dialysis Center is Closed. Uh Oh", edition.

iPod shuffled to Common, "I Want You". Kerry Washington is in the video. The vocals are pretty good.  And as usual, Common tells a story in his music.  So windy last night. Lights blinked a few times. Cable reset a few times. Thankfully, we didn't lose power.  Watching the news this AM, I saw the school across the street from the dialysis clinic was closed. I didn't get a call, so off I go. We passed neighborhoods where there was no power. Clinic is open.  I believe that we'd have received a call if the clinic lost power.  Oh yeah, the neighborhood is lit up. Not sure why the school is closed.

"Last Night", Diddy, featuring Keyshia Cole. This song makes me chuckle. Keyshia sounds like she's singing a half note off. And well, I think Sean Combs is useless, but that's another story for another day.  Anyway, after it's all said and done, I like Keyshia Cole. :)   

It's so hard to limit my fluid intake.  40 ounces a day. ;-(  A Forty Ounce is all I get. Lol. Like only one Old English 800 is all I get for the day. (Put in perspective for ya!).  Five 8 ounce glasses a day. Here's the thing. Nothing is 8 ounces anymore. Most liquid serving sizes (glasses, bottles and cans) are 12, 16  or more ounces.  I asked a server about the glass size. You'd have thought I was speaking greek. Lol.  Think about the size of water bottles. The most common size is 16.9 ounces.  

Solange, "I Decided, Pt 1". Beyoncé's sister is talented also, but man, Beyoncé casts a huge shadow. Also remember that 40 ounce limit includes food. Soup, fruits, vegetables. Heh, melons and grapes are on the caution list. Actually melons are discouraged. But every once in a while some watermelon, honeydew or cantaloupe is what you need!!  Lol. My Honeycrisp apples are juicy as hell. I will not be denied!  Yeah, ok, I talked with my dietician about it. Lol. As always, everything in moderation. :).  I love cider, and limeade is to die for.  Strawberry lemonade...sigh.  Well, the good news is I'm not a soda drinker. :)   But you do need a Vernors every now and then. And a small glass of white wine.....

Ok, back to reality.  Also, I need to avoid things that will make me thirsty. How do you avoid the warm weather. <pout>. This includes my beloved mexican food. Spicy stuff. Chinese food. Lol. Dialysis patients whine a lot. Sometimes I feel so parched. Sip water, suck on an ice cube. Snoop Dog, "Who Am I (What's My Name)". Yeah, it's the explicit version. Lol. The song would be nothing but beeps otherwise. Funkadelic and George Clinton are strong in this one.  On top of this, some of the meds we get makes us thirsty. Bah.

So we soldier on. Trying to control fluid intake. We do retain fluid. I've seen people coming to treatment with their faces quite swollen. Lol. Our bodies will tell on us. It screams "Fluid Retention", like the Lost in Space robot. Lol. "Danger, danger, warning, Will Robinson".  The nurses poke and squeeze us looking for excess fluid. Sometimes the retention isn't obviously visible. They listen to our insides, too. I'm cool with that. Remember, I was retaining fluid in my lungs. :(

So after all is said and done and whining, I'm making it work. I have to. Lol. So far today, I had a 6 ounce glass of water to take my 3 phosphorus binders (the monster pills) and my hypertension med and my vitamin. I had sip of coffee.  I've cut down the morning coffee and opt for it at breakfast after dialysis. :). And techs are not above fussing at us.  They're pretty good at.  Lol. Judgey McJudgers.  Lol. 

Have a great day. Hope you have power. Signing off with Teena Marie, "Potuguese Love". Love this song. Love her voice. Great arrangement.

The "Random Thoughts of Friday", edition.

iPod shuffled to "Pump It Up", MC Hammer. "Identify snakes".  A little sampling of James Brown.  I'm hot right now. After a little while, I'll probably get cold.  Life in the dialysis chair.  Ugh.  My machine has the beeps this morning. Not sure what the problem is. :-(  It's the venous needle this time. My nephrologists visits us EVERY Wednesday, except that time he was on vacation, but sent his associate instead...  We talked about what happened Monday.  I had to get a fistulagram and angioplasty.  He said  consider it maintenance on the fistula.  The good news is, the procedure was minor compared to others I've had.

"Poison", Bell, Biv, Devoe". Dance song. "That girl is poison.  Never trust a big butt and a smile". ;-)  

So what is a fistulagram?  What is angioplasty?  The fistulagram is having dye inserted into your fistula to see where or if, the narrowing or blockage of the fistula is occurring. Angioplasty is having a balloon inserted into the fistula to widen the area of narrowing or blockage.  The vascular surgeon actually saw the blockage on the ultrasound in his office.  The fistulagram specified the location.  I had mild sedation, so I was aware of everything. Doc had me watching the procedure on a monitor. And now, my dialysis machine has stopped beeping. My tech is here and all is well!

"Jam on It", Newcleus. Lol. Sounds like I'm having my own private Friday morning party here. Head bob. Join me lol. " Shake your booty and scream Oh Yeah". ;-)   We've spent that several weeks dealing with the City getting rid of our health coverage. 3 meetings so far, a visit to the Social Security office, and one more today.  I'm pretty sure there'll be more. Am I freaking out?  Well yes, but as I get more information, I'm freaking out less.  I've learned more about Medicare Parts A, B, C, and D in the past week than I've ever imagined.  Brian and I can now speak (sort of) intelligently about the Affordable Care Act.   We understand the role of navigators.  The best thing is we can make intelligent decisions. 

Steely Dan, "FM", Nothing beats Donald Fagen wailing to find a note. The instrumentals are always great. The bass is strong.  Meetings have been held by the City, the retirees association, Blue Cross, and our financial advisor. The most informative was with the financial advisor, but probably because there weren't 1000 people there. Lol. Plus he brought in representatives from Social Security / Medicare and an ACA navigator.  In addition, the advisor and his staff are informed. He had this session because we, his clients, have expressed concerns. We're pretty satisfied and know what our next steps are. Plus he fed us..at Sindbad's on the river.  Good times. :-)

The Tavares, "Check it Out". Lol. Must be close to the end of the party.  The music is slowing down. Lights are getting ready to come on. Erm...watching the news. A passenger on a small plane opened a door and fell out of the plane. Why are we opening doors in planes?!!??  

Dialysis fact and issue I have.  I need to find long sleeve tops that roll up easily and loosely on my arm so my fistula can be accessed....it seems most shirts have cuffs or bands at the wrist, or don't have enough stretch to roll up past the elbow. ;-(   Someone needs to design fashionable dialysis shirts.  :)  And finally Brian is growing a beard for Men's Health Month. I finding it quite sexy. Who knew.  Lol. <3

Photo of a fistula for reference for the fistulagram and angioplasty. Signing of the last song. Well just party out the door...  "Give Up the Funk (Tear the The Roof Off the Sucker),  Parliament. "We want the funk.  Get up off the funk!!"  "We gonna turn this mother out".  Have a fabulous weekend!!!